LONELINESS

Loneliness is a funny thing. I was always scared of being alone. I guess most people in some or the other ways are. It is a constant need to try and connect to other people, even for those who consider themselves sociopaths. One joins social networks, wears a particular t-shirt, gets a haircut done, listens to/ pretends to listen to some music, watches news. All for one fucking purpose. To try and demand and provide the human approval in its most subtle form. It is called Society.

And then I realized that human existence, not as the outcome of natural evolution but as an outcome of social evolution is a trained, manipulated, prolonged reflex action. One is born with only instincts. But to take those instincts, to put them in different permutations, to modify them, to twist them, to even deny them when found uncomfortable is what society does. And unfortunately this ‘society’ does not a have a face. Like any fucked up idol worshipping religion, these notions, these ‘rules’ have been passed on from one generation to next by mere conditioning. Everybody knows it is a lie. Nobody is ‘SUPPOSED” to be good. Everybody feels the obvious need for power, authority, physical pleasure. But society provides a brilliant mask so that people may deny it. The conditioning tells them that even if they feel it, they must not act upon it for the sake of others.